This Is Kye-Rectory

have you ever dreamt of owning someone?

have you ever dreamt of that someone being all perfect to you?

with his silky straight hair out of the blue?

beutiful complexion that dimmed by the moonlight?

or the serene smile that drifts all your problems away in a fight?

have you ever think of meeting him?

or do you believe in serendipity?

have you ever think of bumping into him?

while cruising in milan city?

sight-seeing in paris gaily?

or simply while wandering in klcc?

have you ever think of the chemistry?

have you ever ponder on the similarities of you and him?

have you ever hold his hand?

or touch his skin?

or kiss his lips?

have you ever dream of realising it?

fantasising it? or do you just have plan for it?

have you ever think of the gladness he brought?

have you ever count on the sorrow he corked?

or do you simply dont bother?

or are you afraid of imperfection?

nevertheless,

have you ever think of one fateful day?

or one impromptu time?

when he turns his back on you?

when he call names on you?

when he praise everyone but you?

when he took his life of you?

when he turns sour on you?

and leave no air to breathe for you?

and do nothing when the chagrin chokes you?

or will he help you when you are down?

push you back against all those clowns?

will he laugh when he sees your frown?

or simply, will he come here vividly?

will he hold out his hand in agility?

will he kill all of his enomousity?

will he drive here and hug me tightly?

or will he wait for me ardently?

wait for me in klcc hopefully?

will he persevere our love prudently?

will he come back and say ‘I’m sorry’?

but,

will he be bold enough to do all these?

and,

will he take what’s left of me?

Library,

Faculty of Dentistry,

University of Malaya, Kuala Lumpur

August 1, 2006 12.12p.m.

last wednesday of july 19 2006, i had to let my dear friend, megat go to pursue his dreams… yeah, i was happy and totally glad for him.. he got a chance to pursue medicine in ums and i know he couldnt be happier than that. true, as glad as i was for him, there was still a big room inside of me feeling hard to let him go. things would be different right now on, i was well inform. he would be much, much away from us here and, undeniably, he would be missed tremendously.

he wished for my pumpkin and my presence there in KLIA the time he would board the plane. unhesitatingly, i agreed on that as i know, that was the least thing for both of us to do for him. besides, ezzuandee and i have a very soft spot on dear megat since he was very caring, understanding and a great. great friend i would say to me especially. to my surprise, ezzuandee managed to squeeze some time of his hectic schedule for us to be there in KLIA for megat.

there we were. trapped in traffic jam in the middle of federal highway and, i swear, only LORD knew how hard my heart beat at that very time. ezzuandee’s take that we couldnt be able to be there by 8pm didnt help much in stirring away the pounding. what annoyed me very much was the time he chose to board the plane. 8pm? his flight was schedule at 8.45pm. according to my know-it-all ezzuandee, only 10 minutes were required for them to be ready for the plane. why he chose to board so early?

anyway, i didnt have the answer but, thank god, i managed to delay his flight by 15 minutes after resonating what ezzuandee had said to me earlier. the speed of the car seemed so slow despite he had been driving not less than 130-140 km per hour. at that moment of time, i looked at his face and i saw what i had never seen before or what i had neglected before - his sincerity. i saw how he tried so hard to be in KLIA on time for me, to fulfill my wish upon him. how i had seen the tremendous effort that he put on us. another sweet thing, he suggested that we wore the same t-shirt that we bought earlier that day. how sweet my baby is…wink..

what i thought was left in despair, was not anywhere close. i managed to get a glimpse of megat after he checked in and thankfully, he turned around and came to get me. darn…i still remember vividly how tears flow down of our cheeks as we embraced each other before finally letting him go. then, i turned around to izzah and comforted her in my embrace while understanding her pain letting her boyfriend go for something good.

all of all, KLIA thought me very much. all the sudden, the whole experience was like a tight slap to my face. i was awaken. i looked around and i learned to appreciate more of the people around me. i learned not to take people who loved me and whom i loved for granted. i learned to take every minute and every chance that i have with the people who i loved to the fullest. i learned to love ezzuandee - in the most appropriate connotation. i learned to cherish megat, izzah, farhanah (who were all there at that night) and to always do so for they have always been around me through thick and thin.

i learned so much that very night. not everyone knows what i felt because in their eyes, i was all just a simple occasion - sending my friend to board a plane since he was going to study abroad. true.. but there was more to it. there was a lot more to it that couldnt be seen in ordinary eyes. so, people, take notice of everyone around you. tell them that you loved them and let them know how much they meant for you.

for you, my pumpkin, forgive me for taking you for granted of all these times. i know, time makes us wiser and i can proudly say that im a whole better person - for you and for everyone else that loves me. i thank god for your presence in my life and i want nothing in return than your love for me.

‘Everyone out there, dont you ever take anybody for granted. because you dont know when you might lose them. And you might not have the chance to tell them how you really feel’
-Mariah Carey in ‘Never Too Far’ (from the movie ‘Glitter’)